Saturday, May 05, 2007
WHY? JUST WHY?
things happen for a reason. sad things, happie things, frustrated things, angry things, hurtful things. but wats so ironic abt things is that when bad things happen, ppl will keep asking why is this happening to me. but when good things happen our mind jus simply dun process that sentence.
i am frustrated. i am frustrated abt how things are turning out to be. why things have turned out this way. how did things ever turned out this way. i looked back on my journey and i realised something. or a few things rather.
at the same time i am angry with myself too. argh. i hate myself for not growing up sooner.
why do i always make stupid mistakes? stupid mistakes that casues me to lose marks in exams. stupid mistakes that caused me to lose someone close to me. stupid mistakes that caused me to fail in life. stupid mistakes that caused me saddness. stupid mistakes that caused me regrets in life. i really wanna remedy everything. starting from 8 years ago. the worst mistake i ever made. i admit my folly. but i dun have a chance to make it up. so now i am suffering everything jus for tt mistake. but is it fair? is it fair for me to get twice the retribution for tt mistake i made? all the good deeds i have done still cannot patch it up? doing cip? helping old ppl and stuffs. donating money. must i donate all my organs before i am freed from this ridiculous torture. ya sure, by tt time i would have been dead = freed.=/
or has it been plain stupidity? that causes me to have such a pathetic life now?
ya perphas i am stupid alright.
dear fate, with all my heart i shall seek,
pls free me from this misery and torture.
play no fool with me and i shall be no fool at all.
fill my world with love and freedom and i shall cherish all with my mighty soul.
take my hand and lead me through this maze and i shall be happy once again.
carry me when i am tired and i shall find new strength in life.
fly me to the stars and i shall sleep sweet each night.
dear fate, with all my heart i shall seek.
rampage and terror;
7:50 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007
i've got 'nothing' to say.
cos 'nothing' can explain my pain.
i never know loving you could be so hard,
wats more to let you go.
rampage and terror;
10:16 AM
