Sunday, April 22, 2007
been so long since i last blogged.been an emo wreck ever since forever. i never felt so tired aching and everything inside me before.i thought i had been fine, strong and never possiblity felt better than before.but just yesterday, i knew i was pretty wrong.i have been on an eating spree. been eating and eating and eating non-stop and then suddenly i jus didnt want to eat anything for the entire day or two. i dunno if it is a disorder or wat, which i hope is not, but i usually behave like that when i am down. and realli down. i am onli a mere seventeen girl going-on eighteen. yet life has been...... unbelievable. i have lost so many precious things, tt money cannot buy. i even lost my self identity. i jus feel days passing me through and through. i no longer feel i have a soul to seek and lean onto. because someone left me and moved on i guess. someone who had promise will be by my side no matter wat happens, even when the sky collaspe on me thou shall hold it up with thou two bare hands. i can remember wat thou has promised, but i cant seem to see those two hands of yours holding up my sky anymore.
perphas in my past life, i did sinned too much and now i am suffering my rightful retribution. abt everthing.
i will always be strong no matter wat i guess.
cos i am waiting for that very day, i would popped my clogs and be in heaven.
somewhere i belong~
rampage and terror;
5:18 AM
