Tuesday, November 30, 2004
whee.haven been blogging.was painting my house.wheen.woman guess wat colour i painted my room???!!!!hahaz. shld be ur fav colour ba.if not is ur ex-fav colour.purple!!!hahz. lighter one lars.so dark then make my room smaller.then rearranged the furniture in my room too.hahaz.now look like a brand new room manz.tonight will be the first nite i am sleeping in my "new" room.was airing it last night.haha.and i get paid too!! 50 bucks.hahaz.been mugging for the chem diagnostic test.hope it all goes well for me.
gongz.the entery in pink is mine.then white is ty.hahaz.
well.thats all.hahaz. my neighbour thot i was moving house.lol.
leader heng/ugly woman2/the mother/wormy
rampage and terror;
8:53 PM
saw thz super sai at j8 today.third level GV toilet.omg.all of us went the other side of the toilet's cubicles xcept gongz n emmeline.den heard emmeline plus gongz woah the loud laughter.hmm den gongz asked me go the opp side of cubicles to c smthn.wa bud i wanted go toilet den emmeline laughin so i juz go lor.juz c la.cant b scary thng.if nt sure wun laugh.ok.i love happy thngs.hah.wenta c.woah.one piece of shit dere.actuali nt one la bud two.or can b considered as three.aha.den started laughin oso la.
lemmi decribe to yu wad it looks lik.The pieces of shits were in front of the squat toilet bowl.ya?the oval shape muz squat de?omg.the funi thng iz it has a cross shape.if yu observe it.yu can c how the cross pattern came out frm the anus.wa.haha.firz the person was squattin normally facin the door.bud smehow duno how din aim propoerly.mayb blind den need toilet urgently so anyhow squat or mayb it's a smallie child etc?ya so the shit din go into the toilet bowl!aw man!next the person turned to his or her left bu mayb a bit..er...let's c.75 degrees?nt super sure.haha.den shit the horizontal way.i hav no idea y the person did tt!emmeline said mayb the person keep shakin.haha.laughin or duno wad.the fren made him or her laugh?wa liao.haha.mad manz.once the horizontal shit came out.oh no.the vertical shit got cut into two by the horizontal de!mayb too heavy or smthn?wa!hahaha.eeee!eh ya came out of toilet wif my cup of ice..din wana eat liao.haha.threw away.pple keep hearin us laughin.sori.oh den saw super many pple wearin red today at j8.emmeline started it!sae eh!red!den another.more n more k!den i oso follow la.here there.wa wa!i tink super noisy.ahha.
oh den the drink stall aunty in j8 foodcourt.veri rude.the oldest dere i tink.dun wana say.irritatin.keep buggin us.tot we wil run away wif the food?tot our eng or chi super bad.hers iz totally bullshit eng n chi la.duno hwo speak stil act noe.hah.fake.b4 tt in the mornin had pre camp trng.sat camp.wa rawkz.got chicken rice.woke up in the mornin tot could sit 56 go bishan since super early.bud in the end kept goin toilet til late liao.cant sit bus.sat mrt.haiz.bud it was super early!so went novena n waited for 3 or 4 trains to pass den board the fourth or fifth one.saw jerlyn on bishan's mrt escalator.walked wif her to headquarters.saw hui hui n rest at j8.
afta j8 went emmeline's hse wif gongz n shao min.wached tv.saw emmeline super funi child pics.the one wearin the shiny pink swimmin costume.ahha.wa lao tao!rawkz!haha.lao tao gang.til 7 plus.went busstop.dey diff busstop frm me.manz.today as usual,toked bout gongz's gongz.haha.onli 2 dollars to buy bra la her.haha.b4 goin to emeliine's hse went playground.hah.gongz's butt almost fell out.actuali came out of the swing la.haha.bcoz it was too narrow!haha.nt ur butt big!veri fun pushin yu.emmeline was eatin her sweet n chocs.shao min wachin n laughin together wif emmeline.hah.siao.
papa took leave on thurs instead on wed.ya some freak sai juz pissed me manz.n a photo juz left me super sad.shld i listen to adam khoo?negative n positive comments bout his programme n him himself.i shall isten to myself.my unconscious mind.2mr..spore idol.vote taufik k.he rawkz.more suitable for world idol la.reli!....trust my taste!wooo!eh my room oso purple!light purple.haha.bud i wan brown.now my favourite colour.purple second favourite.haha.
thank kew
nitenite
frm
ty
rampage and terror;
7:43 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
shit lars.been studying the whole dae.almost lah.then wanna use com also cannot.wats this manz? my whole mindis like filled onli wif chem stuffs andmaths? short break alo cannot meh? this whole holidae didnt step out of the house to go out wif friends loh.then still come and scold me.i am so freaking pissed.blah.stupid weather.make my slippers so muddy.this is a bad dae manz.haiz.
rampage and terror;
11:32 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
i made a mistake today.shit me.stupid me.crazy me.i muz b mad.argh wadeva la.y m i so bothered by tt?onli i noe.it's so rubbish.i shldnt care bout tt.tt was juz so stupid.a part of my life.i muz b super siao.bud juz cant stan it.wana ged it over.outa my mind.i hate it wen i hav tt feelin.it's such a horrible horrible disgustin feeeeeelin..argh.
had 'im gifted so are yu' programme today.too bad din last whole day.gona miss it.learnt lotsa thngs.hopefully.nono.i muz study harder frm now on.n change the way i am.my attitude towards life n studies.bud 1 thng i cant change easily iz my changin in state.lik omg.one time i can b lik woah.feelin super awake.den next time...i mean a while later,super slpy.n juz end up slpin somewhere.could b the pool.or juz outside.stupid.hate myself.bud im gona change tt.oh man.yes i am.gary our coach or instructor or duno wad,tcher la.was the onli one durin the programme.wa.super sad the other two din come.hmm melvin the dj too?ya.suppose to let us off at 1 30.bud hu noes man..tok til 2 plus.gongz was lik manz..iyah.haha.bud dun mind him tokin.funi.can laugh.especially the gay fren.He calls him 'it'.duno girl or boy la.super disgustin.father caught gay wif another guy in bed.eeew.naked?i duno.hoo.n the couple thng bout hu's wearin the pants.i lik the one which the guy's standin lik a tree and the girl hookin on to it or him.hoo.funi thng iz wen he did the action.shld shorten my entry ah.next time type one para enuf.manz.
k la.gongz n i rushed to busstop.woah.hah.toked bout her gongz on the way dere.super funi.laughed lik shit.oh yea pamela!u ah!anyhow touch or punch pple's thngs!it's yu!dun deny!everyone agreed.hah!oh so tok tok tok til met dem.oh yea.tok so long stil haven say hu.Hotel gathrin.nat camp.er.woo!serena wore skirt wor!wached taxi.oh man.bud stil prefer the incredibles la.wa rawkz lik shit manz.piece of shit ah.den hmm.jumbo hotdog.nli ate hotdog.bread sux.i hate bread.erm.amanda left.went er.eh?no.hu came?wei rong ba.treat us starbucks.super full.er.fizz left.den pool.wore smthn silly.lik shit again.ma lu.er took neoprints.john little.hme.eh argh.duno if i got tt in sequence.er.cant reli rmb.too slpy?!
came hme bathe woo ate.dere's almond!bud somehow..haiz.kinda dislike almond liao.used to love it lik mad.super sad.eh xiany.bout the programme rite.sori.din copy anythn?hmm nothn to copy!tel yu wen yu come back.if i cn rmb.pray k.enjoy urself dere.stupid girl.super jealous.tried the matchin thng wif gongz on serena.hmm cant.guess she duno wad we were doin ba.manz.looked dumb.
sang hapi bd song to sister.din buy bd card for her manz!feel lik slappin myself.love her so much.im so selfish.frgt bout it.2mr's her bd!or rather..today la.slpy.k.hmm.feet stil itchy.hands too.stupid bumps.go away la.come to my body for wad...wed gona ged 40 dollars!woohoo.rite.done.jack0jack frm incredibles rawkz!i got the bottle!!the ne bought frm cinemas de?!ya.together wif the hotdog.gongz gave me!weeee.k.
nitenite
frm
ty
rampage and terror;
8:46 AM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
oh man.my leg's super itchy and those bumps or lumps?! are stil dere.how disgustin and irritatin.and since ytd was so cold,the thngs grew bigger.omg.iyah.i had lik since few months ago?!siao.
rite.
today..
the day passed so fast.i woke up ate n lazed.It was time to bathe.den dinner to celebrate sister's bd in advance.omg..i reli couldnt stan her 2dae.found her super sucky k.actualli it's always.i duno how she got thz stupid attitude and kept tinkin if dere's anythn to do wif our family.sure there is.bud wad.even my mumi told me she could stan my sister.wad got into her.she's juz so crazy and stupid.fussy which is y she's super skinny.lik skeleton.my mumi agrees.bud sister dun.she's stubborn.seriously.she makes smthn out of nothn,which is y i DISLIKE her.that's the main reason.n she's rude.even to parents.wad kinda daughter is thz.luckily im lik stronger den her.juz pushed her today.almost fell.that's bcoz she juz stormed passed me wen i was lik tokin to her.kinda scoldin la.it all started wif some stupid clothes.C?she made smthn out of a small thng..AGAIN.which is simply...??...of course irritatin.
bud
i would not wan to change sister of course.neva thought of tt too.im happy for hu she is.the ill-mannered girl.i wun dare to bring her out again.wen my frenz are dere.she wil bcme thz shy and quiet girl hu complains to me behind their backs.She's juz so...hidden.in her own world.small kiddy world.childish her.idiot her.stupid me.ya.mayb wrong way of teachin.onli can tink of socldin n beatin her.mumi beat her today.she deserves it.mumi's voice...woah.super loud.hah.was in my room wen bOOM!!i was so scared...haha.bud continued listenin to perfect ten.
argh.all started bcoz of my sister.
bud i wanted her last time.
so it's my fault.bud it's such a blessing tt we got her.mumi's darling.papa's baby.my beautiful arrogant self praise sister.wad to do?she sux.i told her b4.
bud i wun allow anyone to tok bad bout her or even bully her.if dey do.juz by sayin a bad word bout her.the person's gona die manz.juz by dayin tt,i imagined myself kickin tt person n he or she flew away.how childish of me.nt as childish as my sister?!
argh.
2mr goin aunty's hse.i hate it.i wana study.haven touch my hw yet.oh mAN!im dead..yes im dead!it's too late.those hu tink ur stil nt late.tt there are stil lotsa time left..ur veri wrong man..the Os are next yr.veri soon.good luck
disgusted
nitenite
frm
ty
rampage and terror;
8:01 AM
Friday, November 19, 2004
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...
rampage and terror;
11:57 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
hai.todae miss the chance of seeing s'pore idol live leh.cos cos lesson.end too late.nvm lars.think lesson more important.sorrie ugly woman1 ar.carn go with u.wanted to go lah.but carn.so sad manz.went airport in the morning to study.then had to rush all the way to bishan for tuition.wah sae.stand throughout the whole journey loh.legs so pain manz.then bag keep pressing on my shoulders.pppaaaiiinnn.manage to get to tuition on time.was scared tt will get lost in city hall.cos seldom go there.yaya.but i am not so cave ppl horx.
leader heng/ugly woman2/wormy/the mother
rampage and terror;
11:42 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
eh woman. i where got cry like shit.i was trying so badly to breathe through my mouth loh.first nose block cannot breathe.second no more tissue paper to blow my nose.the ppl behind were crying louder than me loh.haaz. ya.remember u got a bad tummy ache.ask me to go toliet with you.disgusting.then ppl were wondering whether there are ppl in the HANDICAP toliet cubicle.haaz. this ty always use that cubicle one.but one thing good is handicap toilet cubicle always every clean one loh. think is scare old ppl will fall down.hahaz. i also sometimes use.when not much ppl looking.hahaz. evil.eh. my mom jus came back from thailand. i like thai dessert manz. esp the mango with sugar and the mango with the something-rice lars.so sweet and nice.she also bought the white chicks the dvd.so damn lam and funnie manz. like the show.hahaz. also watch another one call hot chick. damn funnie loh.eh i also got spidey 2.yesh. remember tt time we didnt manage to get tickets for the show?hahaz.
daphne..can u stop saying vote for daphne.so IRRITATING.no one here like daphne.if everione likes her then she wouldnt be kicked out in the first place loh.
irra is my friend.
miss adam khoo's workshop mans.the trainers gary and cherie too.plus that melvin.hahaz. the workshop totally rox manz.
leader heng/ugly woman2/wormy/the mother
rampage and terror;
11:46 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
fiona....ya eh hey.c yu next yr too!together wif ur lao po izit?i tink ur siao.laugh to urself.hah.
fizz....eh ya hari raya.yu wish me deepavali?!?k thank kew.
ugly woman 2....eh ya.white iz mine manz!mine mine mine mine mine.lik the stupid pigeons in findin nemo.eh pigeon...haha.
irRa....izit christabel's fren?er..help yu link?i quite scared.hah.if yu noe wad i mean ah.
pigeon....eh yu frm findin nemo izit!hah.eh no leh!!i tink taufik rawkz too.olinda's firz choice la.of course.eh how's ur natasha bedingfield manz.so chio!!
xiany....eh ya.lik everyone cried.christabel cried lik shit.haha.eh dun scold me!!i had stomachache manz.n everyone was cryin..manz.adam khoo kept tokin tokin.i felt super irritated la.in the end ran to toilet n let it all out.wooo.shuang.
wanru....yu medic??!huh..eh veri ssssssscccccaaaaaarrrryyyyy..eh no la.im gona b a wife!!yu 2!!
jerlyn....eh jerlyn!!tt's not me la!tt's christabel!haha.i dun reli rmb the sperm plus egg thng.eh dun sound lik the way i write oso la hor!haha.jerlyn's blind!eh izit?siao.
daphne....eh yu beter stop it ah.ur so freaky manz.im super scared of yu now.every word yu typed n i read snd shivers down my spine.n wen i c ur name,i wana puke.so thick skin!stil wan join spore idol 2?!?eh fat hope!go away!n tel me ur real name!faker!tel me!im scared..pweeze.disgustin la.sing wad 'i wil survive'.sux.bud daphne din.she died liao.yu shuddup!
pigeon....again....yu lik daphne?omg.another bad taste person.nono.yu muz muz muz muz lik olinda!yu goondo!hahahaha.
went city harvest church carnival today.omg.me n emmeline walked in rain...wif umbrella.super disgustin.drenched la.luckily i wore slippers.someone wore shoes!plus socks..omg.ahha.so funi ah.plus the person cant speak.coz sore throat plus itchy throat.kept coughin in mrt.eh poor thng.tt tme i oso coughed in bus lik shit.til got one drop of tear.manz.super scary.carnival..quite borin.argh.wenta park near stadium.rawkz.saw dragon boatin pple.angmohs.wa.i love it.bud the water super dirty.i love the purple car emmeline won frm the game!wa..n she wanted to drive it into the water.so bad manz!eh bud in the end din.saw it on the floor at my hse.reached hme 7 plus.felt full afta drinkin jollibean's chocolate soya milk:hot.emmeline bought plain soya milk:hot.burnt our tongues.eh emmeline cant tok den felt so horrible.coz i duno wad to sae.she no voice.manz.eh dun tok so much!!muz eat the strepsils.plus fish!dory fish!haha.she was forced to eat the fish..by my mumi.den she went hme in papa's car.aunty came.duno for wad.funi woman la.onli noe how spend,duno how save money.haiz.sad.sad aunty.sister got new specs.nice la!mine too!!cut hair ytd.funi.round head.eh bud yumei sae thin.wa!!!rawkz manz!i was super happy!oh oh!saw hui juan..pri skoo fren at carnival too!woo!yea den came online at bout 11.
tt fake daphne ah..stop it.it's so irritatin!manz.tel me hu u reli r.dun act daphne..tt poser.loser.faker.acter.rubbisher.disgustinger.horriibler.argh wadeva.
ya.adam khoO rawkz.plus cherie,the super fast speaker.funi woman.chiobu oso!plus gary,the super good ghost story teller.now im scared.the stories seem to b tokin to me every min.siao.n melvin,artistic.good taste in music.mao shi.ya.funi person too.has potential!oh i miss the course.stil cant frgt the time i got the super pain stomachache.omg.terrible time.i love painkillers.
thank kew
nitenite!
frm
ty
rampage and terror;
7:43 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
haven been blogging for the past few daes.ohwells.signed up fo this wokshop called " i am gifted, so are you" by adam khoo.many shld know this person lars.well the workshop was not bad.and todae was one of the most enriching dae of my life i believe.
many fo us faced setbacks and failures in life.well we students faced failure in achiving results that we desired and blah.and we felt lousy abt ourself and start to feel depressed.ya? and when we faced setbacks a few at a time, we always sae tt is not our fault that we failed.we always sae tt" there is too much to study, the teachers are lousy, thee is the TV to distract me, my brother/sister keep disturbing me, i haf no interest in studying and blah."we give EXCUSES. not to others but to ourself.agree? and people who give excuses to themseves in life prevents them fron achiving wat they want, which we call failure.everybody wants to be a winner/champion.nothing will stop them except themselves. and when we give excuses to ourself, we find ourselvs falling and falling again.and we start to haf the thinking that it is impossble for urself to be a champion.or rather haf low self esteem.but hey adam said something to all the girls in the AV and wt g=he said really woke me up.ALL OF US were champions.and this is how it goes.[it may sound a bit R(A) but is quite logical lahs-------------------------when the sperm enter the virgina, it will swim towards the egg.there are at least 200 million sperms that will enter the virgina.and as the saying goes" onli the strongest will survive". and it applies too.onli the strongest sperm will manage to fertilise the egg.rite? on the journey to the egg, some sperms will die, go in the wrong direction or meet with wateva tragedy.and onli the strongest one will successfully fertilised the egg.and the wineer is YOU.the one who is reading this now.u haf managed to be the strongest to survived.ask urself this question.one dae a girl had a quarrel with her parents and she got so angry that she ran out of the house. lets sae she haf this sibling of hers who love her veri deeply.this bro/sis ran after her out of the house.this girl ran out of the house and onto the road.then suddenly there was a ar charging at her.this bro/sis quickly ran across the road to push the girl aside.but in the process this bro/sis got hit by the car and died on the spot.if u are the girl will u live ur life to the fullest so that u make this bro/sis death more worthwhile?wat if this girl was ungrateful wat will u feel? u feel like boxing or kicking this person rite?and this girl that u wanna kick and punch is u.there are 2 million lives fighting with u to arrive into this world.and when u [sperm]fertilise the egg, the remainding 2 million lives sacrificed their lives so that they can give u a chance to live.this time is not jus one life is 2 MILLION LIVES gone jus for u.and if 2 million lives were sacrificed for ur living and u didnt live ur life to he fullest and u haf been living like a total loser the u shld really go and kill urself.
wen the egg is fertilised,it will move to the womb where the baby will start to develop.and the 9 months that our mom carried us was not an easy ime and task for them.i finally realize that our mom is realli the best human being in the whole universe.the pain that they go through cannot be describe at all.it is so terribly*1000 pain. ladies if u are reading this, the pains our mom experience is like 20 times our memsual cramps. can u imagine that? is like so scary.and the checkups they go when they visit the doctor is painful too.if u wanna know what they doctors do ask ur mom.if u wanna ask me, can.haaz.jus tag. and when u haf the knowledge of the birthing process and stuffs u will find that it is realli incredible and amazing that our moms managed to give birth to us. and ppl who find their moms nag o lot at them jus bear wif it. is not that they wanna nag too.is jus that they loved us so much they want the best for us.thats why they nag at us to study properly so that when they leave somedae thay leave with a piece of mind that we are able to provide for ourselves.our moms and dads will not stay by our for all our lives.and if we dun cherish them now and and wait till they leave, then this we realli fail as their child.
and when adam did this exercise with everybody, most of ur cried.me too ya.is hard to cntrol ur tears at that point of time.at first not much ppl cry lahs. but when adam switched off the lights and did another experiment using our imagination, i could hear ppl crying.all around me, all around the AV.and it realli made me realized that i haf been a terrible daughther and a total loser for the past fifteen years.and if u dun want ur parents to nag, study hard and show them the results.the dae u get good resultd will be the dae they stop nagging.cos they know that u can study propery and earn ur own living.
actually i got loads more to write.but is pretty late now.i am so tired ok. my eyes hurt after the workshop.i wanna go sleep now.i will tell more tomorrow ok? maybe also write the letter i wrote to myself.byebye
rampage and terror;
11:44 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
feeling so sick now.argh.cough.flu.sore throat.slight fever.piangz man.missed sch todae.was sleeping.lols.hmm.this few daes nthg to do.all is tuition tuition and tuition.haiz.can onli blame myself.if i haf done my work properly then i wouldnt needto sit the stupid test.and there goes all my holidae plans and stuffs.suppose to slack during the hols but now leh.hiaz.must mugg instead.shall blog some othertime.
rampage and terror;
1:23 PM
