Saturday, November 18, 2006
i haf lost my heart, mind, body and soul.
i haf only myself to blame for i brought this misfortunate situation on my loved ones.
oh god pls forgive me. i didnt mean it at all.
i lost someone i loved, within the deepest depth of my heart.
yet no matter wat happens, i will always welcome you with my open arms despite wat others sae.
to all my faithful readers, slient or not,
i admit that my blog is emo. but wat my aim for this post is to encourage all of you out there to cherish everyone around you, be it family, friends or even foes.
we come into this world with nothing in our possession.
and when we die, we also cannot bring any of them with us to the underworld.
we can only cherish them while we are living.
we only haf this family for this lifetime.
why not cherish them?
spend some time with them and tell them how much they matter to you and how much you love them.
and also to stay strong despite all hurdles, for i believe you will find light at the last moment.
yes, it is tough riding this one hell ride of a rollarcoaster.
but wat can we do?
we gain some, we lose some.
there are other people out there who are in a more miserable state than wat we actually are.
learn from them, people.
one, have a heart and show ur compassion to them.
two, love yourself and make sure you dun end up in the same situation. be grateful for wat u really haf.
it is really heartbreaking when you finally realised your mistake.
but nothing can be done and you can only live in self-regret fo the rest of your life.
to me, my life no longer revolve around bgr.
my life now revolve around my family, studies and friends.
yes, we women seek for a sense of security.
but when we love someone, pls open your eyes big enough to see if that person is really worth your love, heart and mind.
as we all know, love is blind. and thats the point that will lead us to destruction.
to that every special someone out there if you are seeing this:
all i can sae is i love you for this lifetime of mine. and i will never abandon you.
cos even if you do, i wont. is a lifelong promise i give to you, and one that i will commit myself to.
even if the whole world turn against you, i will still love you as wat you are.
i miss you and i wont force you to do things that you wont want to do. i juswant you back.
but wat makes me sad is that i love you to such an extent that i sent you to self-destruction.
and yet this is how you repay me for helping you, believing in you.
i pleaded with you and yet it didnt moved you at all. i dun mean anything to you at all ma?
i can only blame myself for the state you are in and the state my loved ones are in.
i ruined my whole life and i haf no one else to blame, for a the beginning, i didnt do wat was right.
i can only seek forgiveness from god above and ask him to bless you, where ever you will go.
from the very moment i was born to the moment i breathe my last, i will stilll still and always love you. take care of yourself.
with this, i end with my very last post for this emo blog.
rampage and terror;
11:56 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
when there is death, there is life.
and death is only a step away from life.
omg i wanna watch step up.
bowling rocks.
and sch has treasure. lols. we went digging for treasure todae man. so fun.
tata.
and i am not emo!!
am i?
rampage and terror;
11:05 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
life can be simple.
yet complicated at the same time.
why so?
there is black and white..
dark and light.
yin and yang.
together and separate.
heaven and earth.
things always have the opposite of them.
and matters always end up the opposite of how you want them to be.
she cant take control of it anymore.
she is out of her mind and soul.
she has stopped thinking for a long time already.
you can sae she is escaping from reality.
you can sae she is refusing to solve the problem and is running away from it.
you can sae she is a pessimistic of life.
you can even sae
her soul is dead.
watever it is, she has ended that chapter of her life.
and a different her has become alive.
she has seen how tough someone loved another one.
she has seen the amount of tears that someone has shed.
she has seen how much pain that someone has gone through.
she has come to realise, no matter how much you loved that someone,
he/she is always the one to let you down.
alone she stood at the field, facing her enemies alone.
she does not outnumber them,
nor has their capabilites,
nor has their weapons.
but none of her enemies has her willpower.
the willpower to fight every single of her enemy.
they have the willpower of one, she has the willpower of many.
may heaven above enlighten her and give her the strength to live each passing day.
live on my dear! i promise to hang on there with you.
cos no matter how tough things are going to get, i will always be there for you.
kudos to you for braving all the storms and fires. and kudos to my love for you.<3
rampage and terror;
9:26 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
first thing first, i am drunk.
lols. almost. had some wine.
attended a wedding dinner at some five start hotel in orchard.
wa the deco was like realli cool. lols. came late as we were stuck in a traffic jam.
however there were ppl later than us.
waited a long time till the dinner started.
wa guess wat is the first dish?
some lobster delux cold dish.
omg. so ex loh.. even the name sounds ex. haha.
next was shark fin and the usual menu.
was a pretty good and yummy dinner lars.
ok i know this sounds out of my mind. lols.
but one dae i wanna get married too! lols.
they had videos on display of the newly wed.
omg so nice.
both indoor and outdoor pics.
think they spent a bomb on it.
but realli veri nice.
it looks as if a fairytale has came true for them.
wa. k i am almost drooling here. haha. they looked so happie beside each other.
as if contented jus to spend this magnificant night together.=)
wa....0.o
and then when u get married, we gers willl get to wear all those gowns man.
and take so mani nice pics...
in the morning, went to sch for ycp.
only one comment.
total waste of time.
haha.
guys are rowdy.
and chew yihao's chocolate kenna eaten up at the speed of lightning. lols.
so rough loh.pushed me against the fence leh.=(
pretty wet dae todae.
last but not least, happy birthdae barron. lols.
photos to enjoy.
my sis and me <3
lovely uncle and aunt<3
lovely aunt and cousin<3
mischevious brothers<3
aunt and me<3
mummie and me<3
one big happie family!<3
ok i dunno why the rest cat upload. will try again soon ya?=) take care peeps.
rampage and terror;
12:00 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006
SRJC_1S06 2006
1s06 very own class video. enjoy.=)
nov has started and soon dec will come. so will christmas and finally,
a dae to mark the beginning of a brand new year.
and the end of this year.
an eventful year to begin with.
brand new sch with brand new friends in brand new class joining brand new cca.
everything was fun at the first three months.
skipping of lectures, running away from teachers who specially come out to catch those who skipped class, see the principal or phillip tan and immediately tucked in our shirts lengthen our skirts.
results came out after and so did posting. people began to leave and second intake was approaching.
new friends once again, with new class.
was admitted to 1s06. first impression was the class was filled with amkss ppl.
at the beginning, class 1s06 wasnt excatly an united class.
came in drips and draps. everyone had their own cliques.
unlike some other classes which had already been bonded.
despite all these, 1s06 came together nontheless.
as each class outing was being planned, it gradually increased in numbers.
at the start was only 9 people came.
as we get to know each other better, interact more with the rest,
we became wat was known as a class. a real true class. bonded and bonded.
the every last outing came with a full attendance and with a special guest of ms chew.
despite of all the tough times i had to chase all to come, and make sure they did mean it.
two words could only describe all. WORTH IT.
seeing all of you turning up one by one and enjoying urself at shawn's house made all my efforts worthwhile.
chan chin kheng.
chan ching sheng.
joel chong.
chong zhi qiang.
chua zhong ming.
kelly kho.
kua qing yu.
lee juexuan.
lee yang sheng.
lim lin wei.
jinxing.
desmond lim.
eunice lim.
ngian si hui.
ong li jing.
seah puay kun.
shawn.
tan hui fang.
tan su ling.
tham jun hua.
vendra soh.
sheng ming.
zhengzhi.
all 23 of you made 1s06 who she is todae. the top best class in the science stream.
looking forward to another year with all of you.
and once again, may we create history in srjc for the A levels' 2007. all the best to u all.
I LOVE 1S06/06!
rampage and terror;
5:42 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
OP. sucks to the max.
zz i dun want to talk abt it.. buti keep thinking abt it!!
argh!
have i change recently ma?
somebody suddenly commented.
think i become more emo this year. experience more.. feelings of human nature.
so sorry for this emo blog. but at times, i jus needed an output. yes i will try put happier stuff next time.
make all my readers happie?
i will try my best k.
certain things change ur outlook of life. experiences and lessons learnt.
i also didnt excatly notice i haf changed somehow. maybe cos in my mind is still going through all the same stuffs.
lost her way. pls get her back on track.
rampage and terror;
11:49 PM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
PW.
the moe shld seriously remove pw. sucks to the core. destroy mankind's relationship and waste their freaking time.
zzz. wat i kp u. think i so free ar.-.-
pls loh. i where got dun care abt them lars.. u down there tok cok i there giving comments can?
u want sit there tok cok with other pw grp is fine with me. dun come on the pretext of saying u want to rehease.
tts realli the wasting my time lars. and since when u ever so on abt pw loh?
u never care lars. WR u got do annot? all rubbish work k.. everything all heck care heck care..
our grp DID put in effort k. but is always u put in the least. WR who did all the editing. u onli did ur part then dun care already. still sae i dun care abt others. ah pek got put in the most effort k.. onli a pity all end up wrong. u know the WR like the back of ur hand ma? u know how many ppl live in HDB ma? u know wats the excat area of singapore's land space annot? u know how mani percentage of waste is incinerated and how much is use landfill ma? u know how many sites of HDB areas are up for upgrading annot?
of course, u jus read the WR then can find out the ans liaos. but i jus ask u like tt u can reply annot? u know it all veri well annot? i do ok. why? simple ,cos i have been doing all the work! all the freaking work.
i dun care? i dun care i wont go do all the work le. i jus throw it all to u k. wtf.
u go check ur liang xin. who has been doing all the work? got even distribute ma?
u force to give up reheasal? u can rehease on ur own wat. no problem...wth.
u want talk to me abt who dun care. fine lars.
thank god tomorrow last dae liao.
rampage and terror;
8:40 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
SUNDAE.
wah. for once went out to shop for the entire dae. k lars. not shopping. jus walked around town.
looking forward to this coming sat. cos i haf dinner to attend! yay. 11 nov. which also happens to be smebody's bdae.
but he is having A levels. aww...
back to the dinner, means there is good food. oh my. hahas. who doesnt love good food?
and dressing up! lols.
but a veri sickening thing is that my fever keep coming back. but i finish the entire course of medicine liaos.
and the bump is still there, hurting. now the other side is starting to hurt too.. zzz. not a veri good start for the month. i still want eat my way through the holidays. hahas.
sad news. chingay will clash with common tests. oh freak. cant i even get a good SGC for once?zz. in the mist of considering.
another thing, op is in three daes time. and we haven had a proper reheasal.-.-
chi A is over. but.. dunno. been thinking much. maybe if i get a B4 and below i will conssider retaking it.ha. i am mad.
cooking rocks.
and i find some foreigners are getting way out of hand. k no offence. but if u want to get through can you pls sae jus two words? EXCUSE ME.-.- dun jus push ur way through. so rude.
whoo! christmas is coming. yay! hope this year would be a memorable one. seen the decos in orchard and other areas coming up. wa. i wanna sit the hippo bus. i wanna go to the zoo and the night safari.
lets haf another BBQ for christmas!! zz. later end up as the same state as i am now.
anyway to conclude.
i hope the holidaes will be good and fun. cos the first part of the year which obviously had passed wasnt excatly wat i would sae.... great times to remember. cos at the climax it always dropped immediately.
ya. so kinda like a wet blanket to my life.
looking forward to next year chinese new year too. cos grandaunt is comin down to sg. but this time the entire family plus a future addition to the family will be heading down!! yay! yippie!
samy's curry rocks. the fish head curry is damn nice. so is the mutton. everyone go and try k.
and ku-wishing-bo, haf no ideas how to spell, is also fantastic place to eat jap buffet. ex but i suppose i u can eat is worth the price. hahas. lots of great places to eat man. hotel asia too. the peking duck there is good.
hans at far east also seems to be the best out of the branches i eat before. lots of good places.=)
makes me real hungry now. hope i can be in chingay.
was realli looking forward to all the fun and tough times the com will be facing and sharing together. but...
and last but not least, S9 OUTING TO LOOK FORWARD TOO. MAKE IT THE BEST TIMO. haha.
rampage and terror;
10:21 PM
hypocrite. wat a bluff u are.
full of vulgarities and only know how to use tt freaking word.
but ur character sucks like shit.
flirting around only. finding fault with ppl around you.
showing attitude all around.
some problematic kid u are.
keep giving bloody excuses.
oh u can go rot in hell lars.
so easily bear grudges. u can flirt and others cant hor.
stupid ass.
i can only feel pity for him.
rampage and terror;
12:29 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006
still on medication. yucks. every now and then keep feeling tired.
esp after taking my horrible-terrible-vegetable medicines.
love love love.
the whole world is abt love and romance.
tv, radio, mtv, song lyrics, story books, comics!
everyone is on the love tune. -.-
k fine everyone is in love, except for the outcasted me.
all the " i love you" and " as long as u are happie, i will be happie", etc.
ppl nowadays jus sae all these stuffs without meaning it.
ok i know they will argue that they realli mean it. but wat i am referring to is that it came from the bottom of ur true, genuine heart and soul.
i know some do.
but such a pity that the opposite sex always dun cherish it.
this is the way of things man.
either u die or i die. both cant co-exist at the same time.
then adam and eve shldnt exist in the first place.
k i am taking crap. i dunno wat to talk abt anyway.
i can onli see that as i go down the list of my msn messenger,
90% of the peeps' nic are all abt love.
sian.
they sae starting of a relationship, the first few weeks to months are honeymoon period..
the rest.. HELL.
omg ppl for goodness sake, cant u ever make something last for as long as they can in their sweetest and purest state?
ok even so, cant u withstand the ultimate test of love set by heaven above?
why cant anybody pass that freaking test!zz. kk i know i am nuts. since when i haven been so?
rampage and terror;
10:18 PM
