Monday, February 12, 2007
forever: retaining its status for an infinite period of time.
such things dun exist. and i wont believe them anymore.
i lurf physics.
jus like how i loved life.
rampage and terror;
6:49 AM
forever: retaining its status for an infinite period of time.
such things dun exist. and i wont believe them anymore.
i lurf physics.
jus like how i loved life.
rampage and terror;
6:47 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
whee. now is 11 and i haven finish all my hmwk!!! argh. sch is killing me.
jus went for tution today.. errr... kinda fast class.
and yay!! they are here. finally!!
miss them loads. and woah.. my uncle is hot. lols. great body great tan and great looks. lols.
nah.. jus haven seen them in a decade.
had plenty of laughs with them around. looking forwards to this coming fri and sat. yay!!
got chalet.and night safari!!!
next fri and sat too.. cos it is gonna be chingay!!!
early leave from sch!!! and i get to party cos i am in sector one!!!
omg packed week. hope this fri will come quickly.
and smthg else happened again. history repeated, but jus with different person.
i dunno.. jus so sick and tired from all these complicated stuffs.
and i think i wil let go of it. cos since we are not meant to be, why drag it on.
why hold on when we know that it will not bring us happiness and will not give us wat we want.
give me time, i will let go.
then things will go back to how it used to be.
to 10/10:
w used to have many happy times together but i dnno how things turned out this way.
i guess i missed out the chance i had. i jus wanna come clean with everything before i began embarking on a new journey.
everything was abt u. my blog my nic. everything.
but i suppose u didnt know. when u tried to guess stuffs, like who i was in love with, you got it all right. i jus didnt give a definitie ans.
i dunnos, i feel safe with u around. i could smile too. and laugh abt a thousand things.
it became a habit for me to wait for ur daily dosage of sms.
and when u dun msg, i will feel weird and msg u. which was rare cos each day, without fail, u will sms me.
well, that was in the past. now we hardly sit down and talk. we sometimes also pretend we didnt see each other.
it hurts when because of love, we lost our friendship. we lost the comuunication we had between us. and it hurts even more when...
perhaps u have already moved on. perphas forever to you didnt realli meant forever. like wat u said in ur letter. forever, till the end of time.
perhaps i was right abt forever.
perhaps perhaps perhaps, thats all i can say...
rampage and terror;
11:11 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
it is time to let go. leave from here and go somewhere far away.
where no one can see my tears.
cheers ppl=)
rampage and terror;
6:24 AM
Monday, February 05, 2007
Life goes on, life goes on Life goes on, life goes on
You sucked me in
And played my mind
Just like a toy
You were crank and wind
Baby I would give till you wore it out
You left me lyin' in a pool of doubt
And you're still thinkin' you're the Daddy Mac
You should've known better but you didn't
And I can't go back
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back Life goes on [repeat 2X]
Wish I knew then
What I know now
You held all the cards
And sold me out
Baby shame on you, if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
Should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back
Life goes on Na, na, na, na, na
Life goes on Na, Na, Na, Na,
It made me strong
Oh yeah, got this feeling that I can't go back
Life goes on, life goes on, and it's only gonna me strong
Life goes on, life goes on, and on and on
shame on you, if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
Should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back Na, na, na, na, na
Life goes on Na, Na, Na, Na
It made me strong
Oh yeah Gotta feelin' that I can't go back
No I can't go back
Oh yeah I've gotta go now I'm moving on
No turning back 'Cause you made me strong
i wanna delicate this song to myself.
no matter how tough it gets going, i will walk on.
even if i dun get things the way i want, i will jus have to let go and walk on.
once a opportunity is gone, i suppose it wont come back.
they say once a door closes, open another.
i did open another door. but nonetheless i cant enter and get wats inside tt door.
so ppl, opening another door doesnt excatly mean u will have a second chance.
it depends on fate, luck and destiny.
our actions cant decide our fate, cos ultimately the end will lies above us.
but nontheless we cant jus sit aside and wait for it to happen.
i will grow stronger, i will learn how to walk on my own, i will learn how to survive on my own and i will learn how to depend on my own.
watever happens, i will always stand alone.
we cant escape from reality and truth.
and i know i wont. deep within me i know i wont fall and jus lie there.
give me time to pick myself up and i will walk again.
give me time to love and i will love again.
rampage and terror;
11:46 PM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
my legs are aching. i got blisters on both feet. i onli had 3 hours of sleep last night.
i onli had one and a half meal today. dun ever mention fund raising in front of me or i will gladly give you a punching present.
despite all, i was waiting for you to talk to me.
encourage me not to be dishearten and to cheer up.
but i got none. i was pretty sure the old you used to encourage me a lot.
cheer me up when i am down despite you being down urself.
you never knew how it warms my heart when u showed me concern.
the very first time, an immediate failure.
guess i will let go pretty soon, since things are not wat i wanted.
cheers to my feet and all toilet bowls.
i rather not confess any and have the same old you back than to sae my trueself and get coldness in return
money can drop from the sky, but love have to be dug deep into the earth in order to find it.
rampage and terror;
9:05 PM
