Monday, July 31, 2006
a rather.. exciting dae? more of the contary.
i feel so guilty.
i feel so xin ku within.
i realli didnt wanna hurt anyone.
end up hurting everi single one involved.
i realli didnt mean it. i never wanted to do this. but i realli haf to.
having to do it twice in a dae is realli a burden.
double the pain.
double the guilt.
double the tears.
double the loss.
why did things ended up like this?
i realli didnt want this to happen.
pls forgive me. pls.
i am in such mess.
i totally screwed up my life.
rampage and terror;
9:41 PM
Sunday, July 30, 2006
hello peeps.
i know.
i know.
been aes since i last logged in to update this dead dead blog.
been busy with a lot of stuffs.
work and work and work... with love and friends and the list goes on.
oh wells. i guess that is life?
i realli hate my life. so many complications although maybe that is wat others would want or their entire life.
been feeling tired with all the heavy work load and problems i have encountered.
was sad didnt manage to get into the organising committee of the road race.
oh wells.
des was realli a living joke. he some sort of wanna jump out of the door. u know skip out of the room lars. he pushed the door opened. BUT IT DIDNT OPEN AT ALL! GOT STUCKED! lol. end up he banged real hard against the door. lol. was realli funnie. laughed my butt off.
and pw on sat. ah pek ar realli is ah pek k.. anyhow do de.. afte he left we found out he anyhow do.. wa. lol
and zhong ming was full of crap lars. lol. but was entertaining nonetheless. lijing laughed like mad. and keep suaning him. lol.
played minesweeper with zhong ming again. and still won him as usual. lol. 3vs1.yay!
he ar.. always so suay. lol.
went nlb to sudy with angel todae. ha a rather funnie time leh. keep suaning angel. lol.
wanted to share presents for constantine. however due to some reason ended up not sharing. nvm. anyway wanna wish constantine happie birthdae here.
HAPPIE BIRTHDAE DUDE! STOP ACTING DAO TO ME K!=) best wishes.
rampage and terror;
11:37 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
hadsandcastle building training yesterdae. wth i went to bedok mrt at 1 when we suppose to meet at 2.30?! stood for nearly 2 hours at the bus stop...zzz. ck msged me sae got tics to go watch ndp preview. so i accepted it. asked a few others along. had fun building sandcastle. honestly was tough. failed a couple of times before we finally succeeded. heH. cheers to desiree and me. we succeeded! yay! went to watch ndp. fireworks was nice. but by the time we went is like finale? lol. still not bad lars.. went haf dinner at hougang then went home loH..
rampage and terror;
9:10 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
i am going nuts liao..
sch ended at 12.30 todae. skipped a ne seminar. wanted to go kovan to eat. but pizza hut and everi where was bloody full. headed down to ps instead. had carl's jr. omg their burger is so HUGE lars.. but was super ex. 10 .70 for a combo.. wth. totally cleaned out my wallet. sat at there and chatted with the rest. super funnie. then headed home. sleeps.
pardon the language. i am totally in a wrong mood todae. i haf no idea wat the fcuking wrong is it with me todae. everithing has gone wrong. friends haf become enemies liao. wth. i hate such things to happen. and pian pian such things happen to me. i try to cherish everione around me. cos i dun wanna make the same mistake of not cherishing somene and losing them. i lost someone most dear to me. i lost and nearly lost a hell lot of ppl last year. and it hurts a freaking hell lot. i trying to prevent the same thing from happening and here i am stuck in the same situation. everione takes me for a fool. show me attitude. is hard to make decisions. cos i care too much. i care too much for wat they are feeling, i care too much abt wat will happen in the future, i care too much if i am hurting them too much.wth. is it wrong to care? am i guilty of caring? then fcuking charge me guilty of caring! send me to death can annot? wtf. if i can i rather drop all that i can. and live a carefree life ever after. living an aloof life? and u call tt happie ma?argh, jus let me vent all my anger in here k.i will feel so damn better!
rampage and terror;
12:06 AM
Monday, July 03, 2006
3 july. a dae i haf been waiting for for a year. 12 months. 365 daes. 8760 hours.525600 mins.3153600 secs.
and in the end?
had a bbq to celebrate this supposedly fantastic dae. hope all those who turned up had fun. athough eugene said was boring.. demoralised. received a lot of presents. thanks.=)
slept at 3 plus. next dae which is todae was actually looking foward to a more perfect dae. end up my morning was totally ruined. which in turned totally ruined my entire dae. found out truth. i swear i am gonna take back everithing. from tomorrow onwards everithing is gonna change.i am gg to draw the line______________________________________ this long... but still sweet 17 to moi.=)
rampage and terror;
10:12 PM
