Saturday, September 30, 2006
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down. It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers. That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.On Monday she gave each student his or her list.Before long, the entire class was smiling."Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the comments. No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on. Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin. As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her."Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher. "We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it." Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him."Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it." All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home." Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.""I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her purse and showed her frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists." That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.
The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be. So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important.Tell them, before it is too late...
it is by fate that our paths crossed each other.
and by chance that we became friends.
by luck that we get along veri well.
and by carelessness that we slip past each other again.
each of u entered my life.
some left only faint marks.
while others left a deep imprint.
some left bruises behind.
while others left scars.
no matter what u haven done in my life,
no matter how u have influenced me,
no matter how u have left behind,
i still wanna thank god for letting our paths meet.
for being aquintted with u.
to all my friends or foes if i haf any..
thanks for being part of my life. i had my ups and downs.
but nontheless some of u stood by my side when i needed someone.
some of u encouraged me forward.
some of u gave me great advices.
some of u lent me ur ears to pour out my sorrows.
no matter wat u have done,
BIG or small,
i wanna thank u.
rampage and terror;
4:39 PM
Friday, September 29, 2006
hellos.
i am back. yes once again.
jus cant keep my hands off.
heh.
chrismond keep telling me out of the league and stuffs.
lols.
honestly i dunno.
i dun think highly of myself either.
love is blind afterall.
sometimes the person we seek will be the one that hurts u the most.
you claimed that u hate tt person forever.
yet deep within u keep asking urself why u deserve it
why did the person treat u this way.
all the moments we spent together meant nthg to u?
all the words u said to me u didnt mean it at all?
and when i start to get the hang of things u may come back all of a sudden to sae u want me back.
i cant read ur mind. i cant understand ur actions.
i was stupid for a while.
my heart's bruised.
was i even loved by u?
some randomness.
yayness.
i miss my recess gang. and my dicky family. miss u all lots.
and i also missed someone whom i hadnt talked in ages.
guess he is now busy with his gf tt he hasnt had time for me.
9 years of friendship and is jus good bye like tt ma?
without a word and u left me alone.
alone in this brutal world.
rampage and terror;
9:11 PM
whee!
less 2 papers. gp and chi.
gp i think was a total screw up. had no idea wat i was writing. but i felt great while doing the aq. hahas.
chi was average. hais.hope can make it. if not cheng is so gg to kill me.
looking forward to 6 oct nonetheless. yay! end of promos.
gg airport to study with monk tomorrow. lols. hope i will get down to serious business. i meant studying.
been totally distracted jus before promos. i dun want it to cost my studies. i wanna mug.
i love studying. but i hate exams. lols.
anyway found a total new way to meet friends. lols.
i am starting to get the hang of the way things are now.
i dunnos.
jus getting used to it lars.
and after promos i am gg to party like mad.
then study for chi and prepare for pw.
fools we are. hahas.
love is such a crazy thing. brings u happiness.
yet at the same time it can make it fall hard.
fall hard to face reality.
true love exist?
i have my reservations.
the meaning of love?
i have no idea.
memories make up the best part of human lives?
lols. i sometimes realli wanna laugh my head off.
i feeling kinda random now. i also have no idea wat i am typing.
read a friend's blog.
cos of him she is able to love again.
wat abt me?
and to" guess who" if u are reading this, i look totally ugly k! lols. ming ku. no choice.
man u guys must be having stamps pasted on ur eyes. lols.
rampage and terror;
6:03 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
| You Are An Understanding Girlfriend! |
 You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first
And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide
Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know
He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree |
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
rampage and terror;
4:29 PM
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you
Out of reach,
so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be OK
But I was So confused,
my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you
Out of reach,
so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
couldn't see
We were never meant to be
So much hurt,
so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
you'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm So confused,
my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you
Out of reach,
so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
couldn't see
We were never meant to be
Out of reach,
so far
I never had your heart
In my reach,
I can see
There's a life out there for me
nice song(:
rampage and terror;
6:58 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaSmikcBod0&mode=related&search=
realli touching mv. got it from ah pek.
jus had a talk with some peeps.
and thanks to const ya?
the world is cruel after all.
being the nice one gets u nowhere i suppose.
giving in too much also no good.
promos coming.. not getting anywhere still though. hais..
letting go....
rampage and terror;
1:10 PM
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
now is like 11.30am. and i am still at home?0.O
didnt go sch.. no mood sick.. aand all the other excuses...
hais. i now standing alone in this battlefield. lg can no longer support me.
he also gave up on me already i guess?
suddenly my life is so... cold... unfeeling.
i find no significant meaning?
i guess is i zhi zhou zhi shou...
since i digged the pit myself i will fall into it sooner or later.
and i did.
but no one can really understand wat i feeling inside.
is more than wanting someting and not being able to have it.
is more painful than tt.
is more excurating...
but i can onli blame myself...
is i overlooked that flaw btwn us..
despite all the times we had, when u suddenly brought up the topic, i jus snapped.
i lost control.
and once again i found my heart in pieces on the floor.
second time le..
i realli am stupid. i let history repeat itself.
rampage and terror;
11:30 AM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
hais. i jus got back from sch.
my mood is realli going crazy. one minute i am so jolly wolly and boom! suddenly my mood turn 180 degrees downwards.i seriously feel like dying. i dunno why either.
i find no meaning in living in such a troubled world.
yes i know there are things worth livng for. but... aiya i jus dunno lars.
is making my life miserable. the urge to cry. the urge to die. overwhelming.
wish i didnt know u. wish i cld turn back time to 3 july. i wish i wish...
i wish for a hell lot of things.
i am realli sorrie i cant give u wat u want. is realli tearing me apart. i was never torn this way.
but little did i expect history to repeat itself. i thot i was over that barrier. who knows that i haven.
pls god take my pain away. i am realli dying inside. my thots are all negative.
i realli cant take it the way i am now. i want back the same old jolly me. where i can bring joy to others.
but i also wanna thanks all those who had been supporting me since the beginning. esp laogong, chrismond, angel and so mani more. i realli apprciate wat u have done for me. thanks a million.=)
rampage and terror;
9:51 PM
Sunday, September 17, 2006
I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where I find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream
And I know just where I touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time’s gonna fly
And I’m never gonna tell you everything I gotta tell you
But I know I’ve got to give it a try
And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to pain
I know all the rules and then I know how to break’em
And then I always know the name of the game
But I don’t know how to leave you
And I’ll never let you fall
And I don’t know how you do it
Making love
out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all
Everytime I see you, well the rays of the sun are all
Streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight
The beating of my heart is a drum and it’s lost
And it’s looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the deep of the night
And turn it to a beacon burning endlessly bright
I gotta follow it ‘cause everything I know
Well, it’s nothing ‘till I give it to you
I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
And I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
And I can make you every promise that’s ever been made
And I can make all your demons be gone
But I’m never gonna make it without you
Do you really wanna see me crawl ?
And I’m never gonna make it like you do
Making love
out of nothing at all
Making love
Out of nothing at all...
making love out if nthg at all-air supply
rampage and terror;
7:42 PM
hais.
i am so tired.
yet i cant sleep at all.
so mani thots keep running through my head.
ohwells.
big thanks once again to laogong and jx. realli gan dong by both of ur actions.
and thanks to laogong for all your wonderful advices. realli glad to have this laogong. lol.
and also thanks to ANGEL. nonetheless of watever happens u are always there to cheer me up. thanks a million.
thanks for the straw star and heart. cant imagine u giving me tt since u werent in sch. came as a wonderful surprise.
anyway i will cherish all the little actions u have done for me. realli gan dong too.
=)
whenever u are down u can always find ur true friends. i did.
i realli feel useless. keep getting beaten by all these matters. when to others it may not be even a prob. haha.
shows u how weak i am le ba. ohwells. i am stupid and navie. wat to do?
promos is realli near le. yet still not as prepared. i must jia you. i must show him he used studying was an excuse. YES!
and to someone: i suppose u dun care le ba? if u do care pls show it i cant read ur mind. and if u realli realli care u would definitely change. and if shld u realli make the same mistake again, i will realli lose all my faith in you. pls dun make empty promises to me. i cant stand ppl making empty promises when i realli do take promises seriously. furthermore the person is you. i dun ever know if u will read this. but i realli want you to know that i meant everything i did. u asked wat i wanted? but i couldnt ans u at that time. cos wat i wanted you couldnt give at all. so there is no purpose in saying. is not tt u dun haf the ability to give. jus tt u refuse to give. do u know how much u are hurting me? but i wont stop. i wanna go on till one dae nothing can bring me down. i wanna go on till i succeed in wat i want. till the dae i die.
at the most i live the rest of my life without my heart. but with my willpower and soul.
yes christabel. kam-pa-tae~~
rampage and terror;
12:53 AM
Friday, September 15, 2006
kaoz.
dun kp with me loh..
scold 1s06ians BITCHES and SLUTS..
is obvious scolding the gers loh.. kaos u can go and die lars..
who give a damn abt u...
is not ONLI the gers who jeer at u lars..pls loh..
be HONEST hor..
the guys from ur clique also got some jeer u. somemore louder than the gers.. then why come JACK we gers onli..
kaos. fuck off.
and i DIDNT jeer u hor.. dun kp with me on msn.
u had enough i also had enough hor..
come show me attitude on msn.. kaos.
think i dun get angry ar?
go jump off lars.. i also GOT MY LIMIT HOR...
rampage and terror;
8:30 PM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
haiz. wat is the ue of signing into msn when i pratically blocked everyone?
ha! cos i am STOOPID.
i admit i am.
zm sae he is the joke of the dae.
but
i am the joke of a lifetime.
a living joke. to bring fun to people and later get thrown aside.
hate urself? HA.
if u hate urself u would do all means to make urself a better man so tt u can love urself even more. PLAIN EXCUSES.
and PLAIN STOOPIDITY.
i thot i have learnt my lesson. i haven.
i thot u were different from someone. i was wrong.
why?!
i haven committed any crimes in my life.
i dun smoke
i dun drink
i dun take drugs
i dun haf s*x
i dun flirt around
i dun play with other people's feelings
i dun skip school
i do my homework
i study for my tests
i do revision for my tests and exams
i dun talk back to teachers
i have never once stepped into the principal office
i was never late for sch in my 17 years of living
i didnt break any serious sch rules
i stayed at home most of the time
i hardly hang out till the wee hours with my friends
i always go home for dinner
SO WHY?!!!
why do this to me?
why inflict me with such pain?
i haven been a bad girl.
i dun deserve such treatment.
if being a good ger gets such treatment,
then maybe i have to be bad afterall....
life is unfair i agree.
but i think i had more than my share of this misery.
is it only when i cry myself blind will u then let me go?
is it only when i die can i then free myself from this treatment?
if so i will go to the kitchen take a knife and stab myself right now.
they sae dun let obstacles pull u down. get on with it.
but this time i realli can no longer stand up again.
i admit defeat for once.
u got me down. and i cant stand up anymore.
wats the use of asking me wat i want when wat i want can no longer exist?
rampage and terror;
9:56 PM
Friday, September 08, 2006
zz. wats the world coming to?
men are getting more petty leh.. and women are beginning to rule the world.. zzz..
men losing their "MAN" image...
some rather TRUE stuff abt men...
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him
If u Don't , he says u are from VILLAGE.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS .
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT .
If u don't L ove him, he tries to POSSESS u
If u Love him! , he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!& sooo hard to please!!!!!
wth..zzz.. wats all of ur problems?no offence to guys reading this.. but someone jus made me rather unhappy.. so petty over a small thing cans... not nan ren at all lars.. still claim wanna protect woman species....wth.
exams stresss is killing me.. hais. i think i am turning a bit.... "negative"
go figure!
rampage and terror;
11:23 PM
