Sunday, December 26, 2004
wa duno how ta type the picture of mushroom out in the title.hmm.so nvm.christmas eve celebrated wif family.den went sakae.sister damn irritatin la.tink her hand veri powerful and strong?keep clutchin her fit to punch my damn stupid tummy.of course i punch her back la.wa frgt it.mumi wana wach her stupid show on channel u.n so.we went hme early.yea ah.continued writin christmas cards.thou dey are gona b late.hmm.jerlyn went town for countdown!haha.eh funi ah.mayb the person hu sprayed at her liks her...wa...eh bud spray her face cant c at all.haha.bud she said fun so..k la!iz gongz jealous?i am.din go.
christmas celebrated wif myself gongz shaomin and jerlyn.i love the moon.and gongz kept sayin it looked lik the sun.veri bright.bud actuali nt veri bright lor.i tink of the sun.it's way way way much brighter gongz!jerlyn shaomin went cyclin.wa i hate it.ahha.bud can train the muscles.helped gongz to sew costume.onli helped a bit.eh haha.den veri funi.jerlyn iz colourblind to the colour black!woohoo!haha.it's at nite n she wanted to take her water bottle.mine was beside hers.both were black.so i took mine firz la.bud i tink she tot actuali mine iz hers.so she saw a black spot on the ground n tot iz her water bottle?!?!den it appeared as she was touchin the air.oh no.den keep movin her hand up n down through the air.omg.damn funi!"y izit so dark!"gongz asked.hmm i wondered ah.haha.oh whie dey cyclin.took pics.the moon.irregualar shape.den purposely took pic of a couple.guy kissin the girl.omg..woo.got flash!den faster turn away.wenta take my bag at the other side.eh one guy sat on my slippers.bud i sat slowly hold the end of the slippers n keep movin left n right so the slippers come out.oh no.sori man.bud juz walked away la.took bud to somerset.saw other guides.dey went.ordered food."where's my water bottle!"oh no.it's gone."eh shld we tell?" jerlyn said to shao min!bud shao min was bz calculatin.oh no.aha.bud in the end no tax.so ahah.count for nothn.iyah..den muz count again to return us the xtra money.woo.finally jerlyn told me go to the christmas tree to find.bud nt dere!uh oh.asked the staff.she asked another staff.ok.got my beautiful water bottle back.damn scare.i love it lik shit.ate forest of mushroom.cafe cartel.haha.the sauce.omg.gongz too.white sauce.can vomit.gongz n shao min went meet rachel.me jerlyn stayed behind.took pics.botak guide,disgustin pics of food,water bottles,jerlyn eatin,wong mei chin's looalike and the bee of jerlyn's shirt!helped gongz sew costume til she come back.me n jerlyn toked.eh din stop.haha.hah.ccnt take neoprints.no time.no time to buy spermo too.miss yu!haiz.all the mothers called.bud iz one by one.den all say "im stil eatin."haha.same.mrt...home...online...slp...
oh sunday!boxin day!woke up 12 plus.some body dun wan me slp later.open the window off my fan.bud i on again.it's my papa.ate food.continued christmas cards.now left one more le.perhaps gona do 2mr mornin.lazy.uncle came.grandma made us laugh.papa tricked her.bud veri childish.haha.helped to shift the bed wadeva thng in and out of the lift thrice.ate cold storage chicken.wached affairs of the heart.cried a bit.read the new paper.cried a little too.the leprosy ah peks.i wana b a volunteer next time.part time i guess.or full time?hmm.bud oso wan money.iyah.mumi went met aunty.gave us present.foooood.ahha.bud dun lik.woo!xiany reminded me of hw.oh no.din do.wonder wen i'll do.2mr?!?!huh.last week of hol always chiong de.bud neva finish b4.den some tchers din go thru.n start to worry bout tuitions.i wan the good wans.i wana pay attention.i wana dislike slpin.i wana enlarge my eyes by a 100 times.
horoscope: cancer officially.goodbye gemini.i wil always rmb yu in my heart.bud i stil rpefer gemini.i've been cheated for 14 yrs and 11 mths tt i was gemini.idiot.
On december: Cancer- you wil know who your true friends are.
i onli rmb tt vividly.hmmm.i guess it's true.
spermo spermo i miss yu.
nitenite
from
tty
rampage and terror;
7:40 AM
Monday, December 20, 2004
dun even wana study and do my hw.such a failure ah.sure fail a maths n chem diagnostic..bud wad can i do.of course to study.bud it's too late!so i shall WAIT til next yr den study.ya wait.yu believe i wil study hard next yr?dun try to guess.coz you'll neva ged it rite.ahha.means i wil study la.hmm wadeva.
last fri afta a maths remedial went town.afta my dentist.rachel(shao min's bestie),shao min,pigeon and pamela!gongz ah.veri bad de.dun wan come.wached blade trinity.the stupid show.ahha.pamela sat beside me.omg.her kj snd smthn to her.n we were shocked.luckily dey din show the woman's fangs.which was at the stupid vagina?weird.if nt it wil b ra.we tot tt dey wil show lor.n pamela said "i cant wait to c tt part" b4 the movie started.ahha.wa!!!i wanted to slap her.how i noe the movie iz bout vampires!stupid la.if onli i knew.den i wun wach.im blind.im dumb.im mute.duno wad.i din wana keep the tik bud force me to keep.shao min kept it bcoz rachel said give me on my bd?!argh.
o hoo.sat ms lim's weddin.wa.saw the pics.so chio!argh.wana b lik her next time.bud guess i cant.diff face.diff skin.diff everythn.hah.din go.felt sick in the mornin.aftanoon wanted meet dem bud din!bcoz nite time papa bringin us out to eat.early celebration for my mumi's bd.which iz today!the 21st of december.wa.rawkz.happy bd mumi!ate seoul garden til wana vomit.n my papa slimed down.he tel me.n toked bout all the crap.hao lian himself.funi man argh.
sunday.wad did i do?oh practiced a maths.redo xam paper.a bit onli la.at nite ate wif aunty n uncle outside.wa den eat til wana explode again.wa.haha.
mon diagnostic liao.ok la.bud confirm fail de.went town wif shao min n jerlyn.took neoprints.den hmm.saw the condomni and spermo thng.woah.damn cute.ive decided.i wan tt manz.dun care.i wil ged it one fine day.muahah.both at a time.bud the prob iz duno how much.oh ya.n i threw away the movie tik shao min kept.muahah.
tues.mumi's bd.aunties came.din go cf meetin.papa scolded me ytd.oh no.ytd said wad guides too mani thngs??!hmm haiz.ok.la.wadeva la.bud next yr confirm gettin more tuitions.he said leave the tuitions thngs to me.so guess he tinks im matured oredi?!mauhah.eh duno.he stil treats me lik a kid la.gtg soon.goin ang mo kio now.den bugis?not sure.
i love spermo and condomni!ahha.at bloomington.heeren.go buy K!nono.dun buy.later no more.i wan those!dun steal frm me.pamela juz snd me careless whisper doremi n duno wad?!haha.funi.i love the careless whisper.oh frgt to c lemon tree.wana c!later ba.pamela wan go countdown at boon lay.juz bcoz sly's gona perform dere!ahha.hmm.so far!den christmas hope as many pple as possible can go ba.
gtg!bubbye!
from
tty
rampage and terror;
11:03 PM
Sunday, December 19, 2004
friday
did some salvation army volunteer thingy in J8.omg.is super duper chao ji pai seh.hahaz. must wear the apron.yux.the all the ppl were staring manz.omg.lol.cannot sit somemore.hahz. ty u still wanna do annot?hahaz.bought a jacket before doing the salvation army thingy.veri nice and quite cheap lah.like it loads.but had to miss going out with my friends.
sat
went for tuition early in the morning.hahaz.talk to the boy who acted in the home run movie.and he is learning like difficult stuffs for a average sec 2 kid manz.hahaz.and the niao shen keep asking for fann wong no.-_-.lol.after had chinese tuition. finish tuition went to collect my glasses and bought contacts.
today
been slacking at home the whole dae.nthg else.veri scare for the diagnostic test manz.
ugly woman2/the mother/wormy/leader heng
rampage and terror;
11:44 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Din wana tink of another stupid title so.juz put the harlow dere.
Last week: camp and did a bit.reli.it's a bit.sat nite was family nite.
Sat nite:
was coughin n coughin.gongz n guides ame back frm hong kong.din go.dinner at nite.wif papa mumi sister.wanted to call her sissy.juz wanted to.bathe early n changed.went suntec.eh no cars goin into the carpark leh!we din realise.papa did."eh y no cars ah?correct nt?"huh.den was feelin weird.y?bud saw a car behind us.so was relieved.wached too much horror movies.especially the vampires de.dey were in the carpark in the movie n dere were lik no1 else dere xcept the victims,2gether wif the blood suckers.wa siao.papa drove reli reli slow...can slp.lookin for a space.k drove n drove..lik tortoise.duno how mani cars pass us la!wa!ok papa drive faster.i din say la.e words were juz in my mine.got to thz area n wad shit manz.so many parkin spaces.siao.papa laugh.mad man.walked n walked to the millenia.wa lost.haha.reached 'the blue elephant' at 8 plus.super hungry!stupid elephant.one whole stretch of restaurants n it's at e far end.i tink.mad again.food came!bud i cant eat tom yam!ya ya!nt even chilli!omg!!shity.so had the thai herbal chicken soup.tt was steamboat btw.oh b4 enterin blue elephant!saw the cute baby inside frm outside.waved n waved.wa cute cute cute.smiled at us.the father saw n saw him tok to the mama.so muz b tel the wife bout us la.wad to do?the baby so cute.went inside n..haiz.couldnt c the baby no more.ate.disgusted.no chilli.the females(me sissy mumi) went toilet.stayed dere quite long.tt part was funi.long stori.oh cut short.den went tower records.....where i heard my beautiful linkin park 2gether wif jay-z collision course cd!wa rawkz!bud onli 6 songs.love love love it.din buy coz i am thrifty.hah.good girl.veri guai.den hme.played mario.oh no.lik so childish.wadeva la.
SUNDAY!!
australia aunty n cousin reached spore.i hate dem.especially the cousin.nt the aunty la.i guess.shld hate.i dislike dem.i dun lik dem.idiot cousin.elizabeth.the name dn suit her at all.she shld b call croguhi.a disgustin name.den tt suits her.she sux.arrogant haolianer act pretty innocent sweet.wen i c her i wana vomit.did 2 para of ss hw today.the 1st piece of ss hw onli.ya sux.im lazy.bud tt's good.dun need to b too hardworkin.wil b wearing high pants small long sleeve shirts n high socks if i study too damn much.
Wanted to type smthn initially bud nvm.bud wil always rmb it in my head.the one tt i least expect to b so concerned bout me actuali iz the one i once disliked so much.bud of course,now i hav a diff view of her.the one i expected most to help me, to console me wen i needed dem, iz now a poser a useless person a boot-licker a self-centered etc.a person hu doesnt noe how to use words n doesnt noe the right time to do thng.he/she doesnt noe wad he/she is tokin bout n dun care bout the feelings of others wen he/she speaks.THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK.hate you.reli hate you.
My sister gives me hell.does she noe manners at all?cry all yu want.den lie on ur bed.turn ur body n face ur back to me.i left n ur stil in tt position.slpin.tryin to frgt everythn.n nt learn ur mistake.ur again tt selfish.ill-mannered.please...stop acting in front of others.be yourself.can you.you cant i noe.yu neva listen.yu pretend.yu freak.can i slap you.yes.i wan to.slap all your memories away.give you new ones.the good ones.n ur new self wil b born.together wif ur manners.n selflessness.honesty.etc.
disappointed
nitenite
from
tty
rampage and terror;
8:26 AM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
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rampage and terror;
7:59 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
was visiting the SPCA webbie for information on volunteering services.then came across this storie.maybe ur have read it before la.but still i will post it.have been feeling real lousy these few daes.dunno wats wrong.love?studies?friendship?kinship?family? take a guess ba.
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides,stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day. Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her? affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?" They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us,of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.
leader heng/wormy/ugly woman 2/the mother
rampage and terror;
10:25 PM
