Wednesday, December 06, 2006
ok i am back once again. cos mainly i cant find any other output. dun mind this post either pls.
we all face setbacks in life. causes us to be emotional.
all the things that has happened within the past month till now realli took a toll on me.
perphas is a test from heavens above to see if i am strong on the inside and the outside. well, you have seen the results. i have been trying to put on a brave font in front of everyone. so that people wont keep asking for the reasons. trying to show the whole world that i, christabel heng wont collaspe and will always be a happy person. i have a happy life and will always look on the bright side of life. but i have to admit, no matter how strong i wanna look in front of my friends, as though i dun need any support or watsoever, deep within, i realli need someone to listen to me and all my bullshit. i need a support to cling onto.
the tension within me broke todae. i couldnt stand it any longer. i had to vomit all the emotions from within out of me. i totally broke todae.
heaven set so many tests for me. this one is a tougher one. lately i have become more emo, more tempremental.
wish i am by the seaside now. and scream my entire lungs out. let the boundless sea engulf my saddness.
everyone is busy with ogl and cca and other stuffs. some sae too tired.. how can i selfishly go disturb their sleep.
sometimes i jus wished i can sae everything i hid deep within me to someone.
sometimes i jus wished i would not have such a heavy responsibility to carry.
sometimes i jus wished i was not christabel heng.
i am really mentally drained, emotionally tired.
is no wonder sometimes my imagination runs wild.
there is no need for cheer up tags or wat.
jus voicing out wat i feeling within.
i find it so hard to talk to you nowadays.
rampage and terror;
11:29 PM
