Saturday, November 18, 2006
i haf lost my heart, mind, body and soul.
i haf only myself to blame for i brought this misfortunate situation on my loved ones.
oh god pls forgive me. i didnt mean it at all.
i lost someone i loved, within the deepest depth of my heart.
yet no matter wat happens, i will always welcome you with my open arms despite wat others sae.
to all my faithful readers, slient or not,
i admit that my blog is emo. but wat my aim for this post is to encourage all of you out there to cherish everyone around you, be it family, friends or even foes.
we come into this world with nothing in our possession.
and when we die, we also cannot bring any of them with us to the underworld.
we can only cherish them while we are living.
we only haf this family for this lifetime.
why not cherish them?
spend some time with them and tell them how much they matter to you and how much you love them.
and also to stay strong despite all hurdles, for i believe you will find light at the last moment.
yes, it is tough riding this one hell ride of a rollarcoaster.
but wat can we do?
we gain some, we lose some.
there are other people out there who are in a more miserable state than wat we actually are.
learn from them, people.
one, have a heart and show ur compassion to them.
two, love yourself and make sure you dun end up in the same situation. be grateful for wat u really haf.
it is really heartbreaking when you finally realised your mistake.
but nothing can be done and you can only live in self-regret fo the rest of your life.
to me, my life no longer revolve around bgr.
my life now revolve around my family, studies and friends.
yes, we women seek for a sense of security.
but when we love someone, pls open your eyes big enough to see if that person is really worth your love, heart and mind.
as we all know, love is blind. and thats the point that will lead us to destruction.
to that every special someone out there if you are seeing this:
all i can sae is i love you for this lifetime of mine. and i will never abandon you.
cos even if you do, i wont. is a lifelong promise i give to you, and one that i will commit myself to.
even if the whole world turn against you, i will still love you as wat you are.
i miss you and i wont force you to do things that you wont want to do. i juswant you back.
but wat makes me sad is that i love you to such an extent that i sent you to self-destruction.
and yet this is how you repay me for helping you, believing in you.
i pleaded with you and yet it didnt moved you at all. i dun mean anything to you at all ma?
i can only blame myself for the state you are in and the state my loved ones are in.
i ruined my whole life and i haf no one else to blame, for a the beginning, i didnt do wat was right.
i can only seek forgiveness from god above and ask him to bless you, where ever you will go.
from the very moment i was born to the moment i breathe my last, i will stilll still and always love you. take care of yourself.
with this, i end with my very last post for this emo blog.
rampage and terror;
11:56 PM
