Sunday, October 08, 2006
hais.
why must quarrel?
why cant we jus agree on smthg.
i hate the way u are behaving now
u think the others are more important that us.
but who is the one standing by ur side all the while?
qurelling jus made matters worst.
u realli think i want u to leave ma?
i hardly even get to talk to u these daes.
u always came back late.
tired from sch i dun want to fan u.
when i need help with my work i try to handle it myself before asking u.
at least 17 years of companion and u now sae u dun enjoy staying here?
that u wana leave?
that u were not happy all these times while?
where have all the innocent and fun times we had together disappear to?
u dun remember ma?
or is u jus choose to throw it away?
but i realli hate the way u are behaving.
are we realli not tt impt to u anymore ma?
will u not be sad if one dae i am to leave before u?
will u not be lonely when u leave here and be all by urself?
we even used to sae i wld take care of u when we grow old together.
i wld make delicious food for u each time u come back home.
i can still remember the daes we played together.
each time during holidaes,
when darren come over to stay,
we would take the mattress and climb to the top of the stairs.
then we would sit on it and slide down that long stairs. so fun.
we would play house.
cook fake stuffs.
and even open up a "mini supermarket" to buy and sell things.
we used monopoly money to do so.
we tore papers and crush them into tiny bits to sell as "popcorn"
can u not remember those fine times ma?
i realli want the old u back.
where we would lie in bed and talking abt anything under the sun.
where we would take lots of pics together.
where we would shop till we drop.
where we would talk and gossip abt our love life.
where we would tell some lame jokes and laugh our butts off.
if i need give up anything
i would
jus to haf u back with me.
i realli want the old u back.
where u would talk to me.
if u find this house so miserable,
tell me.
i will try make it a better one for u.
jus to have u stay here.
if i can buy back time?
if i can
i want buy back those times we had fun together,
and those times when i am free from misery.
and those times james would talk to me even.
rampage and terror;
1:42 AM
