Saturday, October 21, 2006
ding dong~
i am back once again.
and another sat wasted.
feeling empty inside. with no sense of direction.
someone asked why i can still smile at this point of time.
then wat can i do?
bawl in front of the world and scold and curse that someone?
deep within my heart is a gushing rushing waterfall.
deep within me i realli want to hate that someone for doing this to me.
but can it solve the prob ma?
can it put back the broken pieces?
can it reverse back time?
can it pick me up from my fall instantly?
can things have a different ending?
i can onli wear a smile, so that i wont pass my saddness to others.
so that the one suffering retribution for her actions will only be me.
and not my innocent friends.
i know at tis point of time, i will be depressed, sad, sucidial or all those negative feelings.
but i also know one dae i will be able to be back to wat i was.
i am trying to control my emo.
and i pray hard that that very dae,
when i forget abt the past,
when i forget abt the pain,
when i forget abt my misery,
when i forget how unfair life can be,
when i forget how my heart once bled,
will come soon.
i will welcome it with my arms wide open.
and the brightest smile i can ever give.
if that is ur punishment for treating me this way,
then why am i suffering the same way as u do?
i didnt mistreat u or anything.
in fact i put my heart and soul into it.
but u, knowing well enough abt urself, led me on.
and onli now admitting the truth and ask me to hate u?
why now?
why didnt u jus stopped urself from the beginning and spare me this torment i am going through now?
why ask me to hate u now? and wat, make myself miserable?
a quote from someone:
if something is precious to you, even if you lose your life, with these two arms, you will protect it.
rampage and terror;
7:46 PM
