Saturday, October 28, 2006
actions u choose, consequences u don't
got this from ah pek's blog.
is veri true isn't it?
we can choose the way we think, we act, we infer
but no matter wat we do to haf the results we want, things doesnt turn out to be that way.
there are bound to be some "invincible external factor" that will change the way things are.
i also dunno wat is that.
luck?
destiny?
fate?
sometimes it is also the way other parties involved behave.
i cant confirm that things will turn out the way i want.
but i really did all i can to avoid the undesired.
a lesson learnt from previous experience maybe still hasn't taught me enough.
or maybe afterall i am fated to meet things this way.
two nights ago, was talking to yao guai.
then at night suddenly was emo again.
everything came rushing back.
all those memories.
if onli things were as perfect as it used to be.
things were back to wat it used to be.
or even better, if those memories didnt happen at all...
however, i know no matter how badly how desperate i want thins to be reversed,
it can never happen again.
things already happened. we have all made our choices. so i have to bear the consequences.
but haf u ever thot the decision i made was under the circumstances that i do not haf a choice?
to protect myself from further misery, i had to do things this way although i dun want to?
to small fish, u may think i am a selfish person who refuses to give all an equal chance and tt it is unfair to you, pls understand that i cant help it this time. i refuse to haf the same thing happen again. and this time, i haf to protect myself first. me!before anybody else. u may turn hostile towards me. maybe u cant help it.
but no one will ever understand wat i have gone through and am going through.
rampage and terror;
3:27 PM
