Monday, October 23, 2006
BOORING!
sian i am going mad.
so mani ppl dun want to come for class gathering!
so is it still considered a class gathering?
beginning still got ppl say confirm will go. how we gg to bond like tt?
all the jokers not coming for ice skating. qy cant make it for the BBQ
and i dunno the rest.. like ck joel...
suddenly find that my daily life has lost all its essence.
no fun. no happiness. nothing. jus empty.
i am not depressed lars.
i was jus looking through some photos like the sands of mission.
then i realise my smile then as compared to now looked more real.
like as though i was realli happie at that time.
but then now, i suddenly cant realli smile from the bottom of my heart.
but then again, those times were indeed different from the way things are now.
everything has turned an 180 degress within a flash of the eye.
i cant grasp anything right now.
i am still trying to get used to the way things are.
and how it will always remain like tt.
i could only stare and yet i cant do anything.
i know i sometimes am running away from reality.
but at least it brings a certain degree of comfort to me. and i mean avoiding the person.
not avoidng the facts.
des was saying things that you want to forget u cant and things that u want to keep within urself u eventually forget.
i cant agree more.
of course, things that hurts u the most and u want to forget them, they will always be craved deep within ur inner soul.
and things that you cherish, sometimes it will jus slip off ur mind.
i got a lot of entangled feelings within me. and i realli need to get them off my chest.
no sense of direction or aims to achieve.
i jus waiting mainly for chingay to start.
and holiday lectures.
and holiday homework.
u asked me wat i think of you.
but i cant answer for i dun even know who u realli are.
rampage and terror;
11:30 PM
