Sunday, September 17, 2006
hais.
i am so tired.
yet i cant sleep at all.
so mani thots keep running through my head.
ohwells.
big thanks once again to laogong and jx. realli gan dong by both of ur actions.
and thanks to laogong for all your wonderful advices. realli glad to have this laogong. lol.
and also thanks to ANGEL. nonetheless of watever happens u are always there to cheer me up. thanks a million.
thanks for the straw star and heart. cant imagine u giving me tt since u werent in sch. came as a wonderful surprise.
anyway i will cherish all the little actions u have done for me. realli gan dong too.
=)
whenever u are down u can always find ur true friends. i did.
i realli feel useless. keep getting beaten by all these matters. when to others it may not be even a prob. haha.
shows u how weak i am le ba. ohwells. i am stupid and navie. wat to do?
promos is realli near le. yet still not as prepared. i must jia you. i must show him he used studying was an excuse. YES!
and to someone: i suppose u dun care le ba? if u do care pls show it i cant read ur mind. and if u realli realli care u would definitely change. and if shld u realli make the same mistake again, i will realli lose all my faith in you. pls dun make empty promises to me. i cant stand ppl making empty promises when i realli do take promises seriously. furthermore the person is you. i dun ever know if u will read this. but i realli want you to know that i meant everything i did. u asked wat i wanted? but i couldnt ans u at that time. cos wat i wanted you couldnt give at all. so there is no purpose in saying. is not tt u dun haf the ability to give. jus tt u refuse to give. do u know how much u are hurting me? but i wont stop. i wanna go on till one dae nothing can bring me down. i wanna go on till i succeed in wat i want. till the dae i die.
at the most i live the rest of my life without my heart. but with my willpower and soul.
yes christabel. kam-pa-tae~~
rampage and terror;
12:53 AM
