Thursday, September 14, 2006
haiz. wat is the ue of signing into msn when i pratically blocked everyone?
ha! cos i am STOOPID.
i admit i am.
zm sae he is the joke of the dae.
but
i am the joke of a lifetime.
a living joke. to bring fun to people and later get thrown aside.
hate urself? HA.
if u hate urself u would do all means to make urself a better man so tt u can love urself even more. PLAIN EXCUSES.
and PLAIN STOOPIDITY.
i thot i have learnt my lesson. i haven.
i thot u were different from someone. i was wrong.
why?!
i haven committed any crimes in my life.
i dun smoke
i dun drink
i dun take drugs
i dun haf s*x
i dun flirt around
i dun play with other people's feelings
i dun skip school
i do my homework
i study for my tests
i do revision for my tests and exams
i dun talk back to teachers
i have never once stepped into the principal office
i was never late for sch in my 17 years of living
i didnt break any serious sch rules
i stayed at home most of the time
i hardly hang out till the wee hours with my friends
i always go home for dinner
SO WHY?!!!
why do this to me?
why inflict me with such pain?
i haven been a bad girl.
i dun deserve such treatment.
if being a good ger gets such treatment,
then maybe i have to be bad afterall....
life is unfair i agree.
but i think i had more than my share of this misery.
is it only when i cry myself blind will u then let me go?
is it only when i die can i then free myself from this treatment?
if so i will go to the kitchen take a knife and stab myself right now.
they sae dun let obstacles pull u down. get on with it.
but this time i realli can no longer stand up again.
i admit defeat for once.
u got me down. and i cant stand up anymore.
wats the use of asking me wat i want when wat i want can no longer exist?
rampage and terror;
9:56 PM
