Tuesday, September 19, 2006
hais. i jus got back from sch.
my mood is realli going crazy. one minute i am so jolly wolly and boom! suddenly my mood turn 180 degrees downwards.i seriously feel like dying. i dunno why either.
i find no meaning in living in such a troubled world.
yes i know there are things worth livng for. but... aiya i jus dunno lars.
is making my life miserable. the urge to cry. the urge to die. overwhelming.
wish i didnt know u. wish i cld turn back time to 3 july. i wish i wish...
i wish for a hell lot of things.
i am realli sorrie i cant give u wat u want. is realli tearing me apart. i was never torn this way.
but little did i expect history to repeat itself. i thot i was over that barrier. who knows that i haven.
pls god take my pain away. i am realli dying inside. my thots are all negative.
i realli cant take it the way i am now. i want back the same old jolly me. where i can bring joy to others.
but i also wanna thanks all those who had been supporting me since the beginning. esp laogong, chrismond, angel and so mani more. i realli apprciate wat u have done for me. thanks a million.=)
rampage and terror;
9:51 PM
